Over the past 21
months, I have been a part of many meetings, trainings, discussions, and
seminars. The common denominator, in the
end, is the firm belief that the real problem is everyone outside the room:
from the colonisers, to the Banyamulenge, to the president, to the civil
servants, to the NGOs, to the planning/implementation/monitoring/evaluation process
of any given project, to the village chiefs, to the villagers, to the gas in
the lake.
Everything is
the problem.
Everything but you
and me. And I’m not too sure about you.
Recently, one
such seminar proved to be a surprise.
Headed by the Provincial Division of Health, we were learning how to
manage stress in the workplace. The oily
civil servant serving as our facilitator had firmly pushed the full
responsibility of funding all public services onto the shoulders of local NGOs
and, in consequence, their donors. Only
one doctor, a wizened character with a disturbing tendency to cackle, was
willing to face the truth. As I fully
expect to resemble him in the future – with bulging red eyes, a complete
disregard for human relations, and unparalleled rage released in the form of
inappropriate giggles – I took notes and have tried to quote him as best I can.
“The community
approach?! Community approach?! It
doesn’t work! Who is the community?! It’s us!
It’s our responsibility as
civil servants to change our government – to charge our state to take
responsibility of its people and services...
There are always good results [with projects] – as long as there is [financial] support! But what happens after the support?! This is
what we should always be thinking
about. Think about what will
follow: What will we do after? We
won’t receive aid forever... No country has ever been developed through aid!
Never! ...I’m looking at you – look me in the
eyes. What do we do now?! You’re
right: This work requires a lot of
money! Who will give you this money?!”
After a rousing
monologue - liberally interspersed with both our triumphant cackles and the
frantic scratching of my pen - as my coordinator regarded me in fond
exasperation, the room fell silent. Our
facilitator tried to rally.
“Look, I’ve
noted this problem from the beginning.
The state just does not have the means--”
“You have the
means; you don’t have the will,” stated one woman firmly.
The room at
large hid their smirks as the deflated facilitator continued to gurgle excuses.
Over our lunch
break, I shook the eccentric doctor warmly by the hand and thanked him for his
honesty. My coordinator interjected that
this was the sort of thing I rambled on about all the time.
Now she’ll never shut up was heavily implied.
He is not wrong.
But it was back
to business as usual in our other cluster meetings – led by various UN groups
that try to unify the many actors working in a given field to ensure maximum
protection and care of civilians. When
one facilitator noted that a lot of money was soon to arrive in this province
due to incredible human rights violations in the south by the national army and
armed groups alike, the excitement of the NGO representatives who worked in
that area was palpable; the others projected a general air of resignation,
content to hope that militias in their respective provinces would soon start
attacking women and children or burning villages so that they, too, could keep
their jobs.
There seemed to
be a general increase in attacks by local militias in the recent past, although
it’s hard to gauge; sometimes it’s a shock to balance the experience of hearing
of, for example, 90 rapes in a certain zone, and knowing that a significant
portion of the population of this city grins indulgently at the possibility of
election-related violence as though they are mentally in Geneva. The most bizarre story this month was the
attack of women by local militias on the hunt for gold and other valuables in -
you guessed it – vaginas; now there’s an unbeatable Family Feud response.
For years, we’ve
thought the family jewels to be the sole property of men, but they’re on to us,
ladies.
As a good Indian
girl, I tend to wear my flashy jewellery on the outside, where it can blind everyone in my vicinity be properly appreciated. But who is to say that a pregnant mother of 5
in a village in central Africa isn’t
carrying around a bar of solid gold in her vajay-jay? Hmm?
Well?
That’s right – the
proof is in the p-- Well, it’s somewhere,
at any rate. Unless it’s not, but you never
know until you check; it’s always in the last place you look, amiright?
The final word
was that, in light of the holiday season, the number of these attacks is
expected to rise.
Well, little Timmy really wants a Hot Wheels this
year... Hi, ho; hi, ho – it’s off to
work I go...
Breaking news also
informed us that the national army set fire to 800 homes in a certain
area. Luckily, the homes had already
been abandoned – I assume due to the lack of insurance for Crazy People in Uniform Crazily Setting Things on Fire – but now
the refugees (who were thought to be rebels and thus undeserving of personal
property) have nowhere to return, thus requiring more aid.
Go team!
At another meeting,
we discussed the apparent decrease in
human rights violations in the last month.
The speaker, earnestly presenting a set of data that could have been
found under a rock in the land called Honalee for all I knew, seriously
hypothesized that this was due to the deployment of the national army in zones
heretofore controlled by armed groups.
A roomful of
humanitarian agents, representing around 35 NGOS, sniggered.
I’m sorry if all
this seems cynical; I certainly don’t mean to make light of human suffering. But dark humour is my way of dealing with the
reports above and simultaneous knowledge of a winter wonderland of candy canes
and peppermint hot chocolate.
My friends and
coworkers have a similar approach, with a healthy dose of blind hope, which springs
eternal – in growing families, in students who continue to go to school, to
graduate, in workers who spend their lives moving from contract to
contract. But I’m afraid that hope
changes nothing without active heads, hearts, and hands. Without the awareness that the responsibility
for a failed state is shared with parents who accept financial compensation in
return for their daughter’s rape, with humanitarian workers who steal from that
poverty-stricken family to feed their own, with government employees who base
hiring practices on family trees rather than degrees, with tribes who kill over
territory that could be destroyed by the uniformed army of their own country, with
donors who place tighter controls on reports than they do on moral
standards.
Until this
changes, we will have nothing but a collection of impossible ideals in this vast
country – we’re all looking at a blueprint for total independence, but building
on a foundation of pointing fingers.
You have heard it said that with great power comes great responsibility, but truly I tell you – with great responsibility comes great power.
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